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1. Squabblety-Budgets "Come in, come in," Murray exclaimed, opening the kitchen door wide. He glanced at his watch. "You made excellent time! How was the traffic? Ruth, is that all you brought?" Ruth propped her large floppy tote against her carry-on bag and kissed her father hello. "I always travel light, Dad, you know that." She looked around. "Where's Lizzie?" "She called and said she'll be down tomorrow morning," Murray replied. "Something about wanting to get some papers graded tonight. George"-and he clasped his son's arm-"thanks for doing airport duty." "Nice sweater, Dad," said Ruth. "Is it new?" Murray glanced down, as though he'd forgotten what he was wearing. "This? No, just dug it out of the back of the closet. Mothballs and all." "Well, you look good in red, Dad," said Ruth. Murray beamed. It pleased him when Ruth took note of his grooming efforts, not because he was out to impress her, but because he knew Ruth had a tendency to keep tabs on how well he was taking care of himself. This would give him a nice bold check in the "Keeps Up Appearances" column. "I have dinner all ready," he told them. On the stove was a pot of chili, along with a pan of cornbread made from a mix Ruth had brought him from Santa Fe, probably years ago. He'd prepared a salad as well-though that, too, had been easy, coming prewashed in a bag so all he did was dump it in a bowl. "We can eat any time." "Let me check in with Morgan first," said Ruth, taking out her phone. "You already checked in with him," George said. "Three times in the car already." "I want him to know we arrived," Ruth said, and her index finger skittered across the screen. Murray looked on, somewhat appalled: What color was her nail polish, exactly? Blue-green? In a law firm? It looked vampirish to Murray. Ruth, having sent her text, placed her phone on the table. "Okay, now I'll take a glass of wine." "Wow, fancy stuff," George observed, as Murray got a bottle of white wine from the refrigerator. "Is this the right one?" Murray asked Ruth, showing her the bottle. "Wait-you told him to get you that wine?" George said. "Seriously?" "Zip it, George," said Ruth. George took the bottle from Murray's hand before he could uncork it. He eyed the label. "How much did this cost?" "I said drop it, George," Ruth warned. "Nothing wrong with splurging every once in a while," Murray said lamely-wishing George would, in fact, drop the issue. The wine had actually cost over twenty dollars at the state liquor store, far more than what Murray might have spent on a bottle for himself, but Ruth had been specific and he didn't want her to be disappointed. He'd only bought one bottle, anyway. It wasn't like he was going to keep her supplied all weekend long. "Do you want some, George?" "No, I'll just take a Bud," quipped George, emphasizing the common-man's brand, which Murray thought was an unnecessary dig, since George knew that Murray always kept a few craft beers in the refrigerator for his son. But if it was a dig, Ruth did not snap back, and they sat down to Murray's dinner and for the rest of the evening they made light, frivolous, for the most part happy conversation: George telling them about his knee injury; Ruth filling them in on the soccer camps the boys had attended this summer, and the awards they'd received, and their week at the Delaware shore where Kyle forgot sunscreen one day and ended up with a blistering sunburn that Ruth still got choked up about, because now if he got skin cancer it would be her fault. Murray, for his part, just sat and listened. He wished Lizzie were here, too, but he had to admit, he was grateful for all this harmony. Ruth and George seemed to be making an effort. If only the whole weekend could be just like this, he thought. Any ideas, Lillian? Would you scold, if things started heating up? Let them duke it out themselves? Or would you escape to your room upstairs and write about it? As it would turn out, the next morning would find Murray wondering what toxic wind had blown in during the night, because when he came downstairs around eight, he found Ruth and George arguing at the breakfast table about who should inherit their grandfatherÕs army parka. Over toast they argued about the percentage by which Donald Trump was going to lose. (ÒEpic,Ó George predicted. Murray himself wasnÕt so sure.) Over eggs, they fought about how to deal with Lizzie, who was posting unflattering childhood pictures of them all on Facebook. By nine o'clock they'd moved on to finances; as Murray was making a second pot of coffee, Ruth was trying to convince George he should be putting more money into his retirement account, and George was getting prickly, Murray could tell, not just because he probably wasn't putting enough aside, but because Ruth could be so bossy. Squabblety-budgets, Lillian used to call them when they fought like this. Yackety-yacks. Their voices sounded like the Sunday morning news shows. Stop it! he wanted to shout. But then an idea occurred to him, so simple he wondered why he hadn't thought of it before: he reached up and removed his hearing aid and slipped it into his pocket. And that was it; that was better. Without the device, his children's voices receded and Murray felt happy. Let them argue for the time being. Slowly the coffee began to burble up in the old percolator and Murray felt happier still. He looked out the window. It was a cloudless day, the blue peaks of the Franconia Range deeply shadowed from the low morning sun. Down the hill, just visible over the roof of his barn, lay a brilliant swash of yellow. Murray had put in two acres of sunflowers three years ago, almost as much an experiment in color as an agricultural endeavor. The flowers grew chest-high, as big as dinner plates, drooping heavily at this time of year from the weight of their seeded centers. Standing in his field, under a cerulean sky and surrounded by a sea of gold, Murray Blaire felt like Van Gogh. The coffee smelled good, rich, nutty. It occurred to him that he might have given the army parka to the thrift shop. "I said Dad!" Ruth exclaimed. "Don't shout!" Murray snapped. (Oh, he hated getting snappy!) Ruth then said something that Murray couldn't quite make out. He wondered if he could slip his hearing aid back in without her noticing, now that she had zeroed in on him for something. Ruth had a way of noticing all the woulds, coulds, and shoulds he did or didn't do, many of which had to do with the safety of living alone; she thought he should use his hearing aid all the time, for instance, though what that had to do with safety, Murray couldn't say. Yet wasn't this tendency the reason he'd urged her to come up for a long weekend, to be honest? Because she also noticed those woulds and shoulds about everyone else, too, and she would notice them about Lizzie. More specifically, what Lizzie could and should be doing to get out of what Murray perceived to be a bad relationship. For the past year and a half, Lizzie had been seeing an older man named Gavin Langley, technically married but separated from his wife. Originally from New York, he'd bought a place near Lizzie in the hamlet of Sugar Hill, a nineteenth-century clapboard farmhouse that he'd gutted and remodeled with local stone and timber. Murray had visited the place once, when Gavin invited the locals to come and admire his renovations; this was before Murray knew that any kind of relationship existed with Lizzie, and he'd stood and nibbled cheddar cheese, wondering how soon he could extricate himself from the man's ostentatious attempts to garner admiration under the guise of neighborly generosity. Eventually Murray learned of his daughter's involvement with the man, but things had reached a point this past month where Murray suspected all was not well, for Lizzie's moods had grown increasingly dark lately. Something was going on. And Murray, as her father, felt quite helpless to investigate. "Dad, focus, please!" implored Ruth. Fine. Ignoring his daughter's watchful eye, Murray fitted his hearing aid back in, poured himself some coffee, and went to sit at the old drop-leaf table with Ruth and George. Ruth was wearing baggy gray sweats, and she'd clipped her hair up in back so that it fell over on itself, like a rooster tail. George wore a black T-shirt that read "ÀloN q M." rma e hy "Now what's this all about?" said Murray. "Will you please tell George why he should be saving more for retirement?" Ruth said. "Nope," said Murray. "George is forty-five. He knows about compound interest." "Forty-four," George pointed out. "Where's Lizzie with the coffee cake, anyway?" said Murray. "She should be here by now." A shadow clouded his mind, as it always did when one of his kids didn't arrive on time. Anything could happen. Look at Lillian. Look at Daniel. Contrary to popular belief, lightning could always strike twice. "Do you actually think you can live on Social Security?" Ruth asked George. "I have a pension, Ruth," said George. "I am employed, you know." Murray checked his watch. "Darn that girl. Somebody call her." Both his children simultaneously reached for their phones. Murray got the feeling it was a race. Everything with his children was a competition, it seemed. "In the meantime, though, since I have you here, I want to talk about the situation." "Which situation?" asked Ruth. "Dad doesn't like Gavin," George told her. "Oh, that one. I don't like Gavin either," said Ruth. "He's what, twenty-seven years older than she is, to begin with." Murray rubbed his chin. He'd forgotten to shave that morning, he just realized. No doubt Ruth had noticed. "My fear is that he's leading your sister on," he said. "Cultivating expectations. He's not serious about her, that much I can sense, and I'm afraid she's going to end up hurt." Murray was old-fashioned when it came to sex; he viewed women as more vulnerable than men, more likely to think that love was involved and apt to fall apart when things ended. He didn't know the exact terms of the relationship in question here, but he did know Gavin was still married, at least on paper. And he thought Ruth, as an older sister, could help empower Lizzie to extricate herself. "I want you to talk to her, Ruth." "Not me?" asked George, hurt. "I already talked to her once this summer," said Ruth. "She didn't want to listen." "Well, she definitely doesn't want to listen to her old man," Murray said. "You're her sister. You're a woman." "She's actually closer to me," George pointed out. "Fine, you talk to her," said Ruth. "Stop it, the two of you," said Murray, convinced his children could find discord in a glass of milk. "This is my house. I hate it when you fight. Your mother would hate it, too. So stop it." "Speaking of which," began Ruth. "Uh-oh," said George, and Murray grunted. Speaking of which, they both knew, meant that Ruth was going to change the subject. "I noticed a little mold in the bathroom, Dad. Behind the sink pedestal. Have you had the house tested for black mold?" "I don't have black mold," said Murray. "I have blue mold." "You still have to take care of it. Get Sandra to wipe down the walls with some vinegar. Also there's a huge wasp nest under the eaves." "I'll take it down." "No. You'll hire a professional. You're allergic to bees, Dad." "I am?" "Dad!" "Then I'll spray it after dark." "Why won't you just hire someone?" Ruth said. "Is this why you came up here?" George asked her. "To tell him what to do about all the things that are wrong with his house?" "Of course not. But at some point we're going to need to talk about a whole different living situation for Dad, and this is just the start." "I keep a very clean house," said Murray. "I throw out my newspapers. I take out my garbage. Do I have mice in the walls? Yes. Squirrels in the attic? Maybe a few. So what? A little blue mold isn't going to kill me." He nodded at Ruth's cell phone. "Have you heard back from her?" Ruth shook her head. Murray sighed. Despite the coffee, he suddenly felt drowsy. "I'm going to go lie down," he said. "Wake me when she gets here." He left the room and shuffled toward the stairs, trying to remember his last bee sting. "You see?" he heard Ruth say. "How tired he gets? And it's only quarter past nine." In the relative quiet of his room, Murray lay down on his bed, which he hadnÕt yet made this morning: something else Ruth would notice. A few leaves on the maple tree outside his window had turned red, which reminded him that fall was upon him, which reminded him that winter was not far along, which made him sad. Winters had gotten so long at this point in his life. Well, they were long because he couldn't ski anymore because of back problems, he reminded himself. He no longer snowshoed because of balance issues. All he could do was sit inside and read when the north wind blew. If he went for a walk, he risked slipping. If he drove, he might skid. Sometimes he felt like a hermit, living alone and talking to himself just to exercise his vocal cords. What Murray really wanted this year was to go to Mexico for the winter. To find a small fishing village untainted by tourists, a place where he could rent a little stucco house and learn the language and eat the local food and shop at the local market. He'd heard that the town of Zihuatanejo on the Pacific was such a place, but when he Googled it, he saw restaurants and beaches and pleasure boats, and concluded that it would be too touristy for him. It would take some research to find the right place, but that was half the fun. He would leave in January, and return after mud season, in late April, so he could be there for the purple trilliums and the lady slippers, the turning over of the soil in his sunflower field, the things that made life worth living here in northern New England. Murray kicked at his sheets so he wasn't lying on wrinkles and lumps. He settled himself and folded his hands over his diaphragm and felt his breath begin to steady. He really was worried about Lizzie. He couldn't say for sure that Gavin was responsible for this, but Lizzie had been acting differently lately. Jumpy and skittish, prone to talk about leaving her job and going off to live in India or Nepal for a year. She'd never spoken of those countries before and Murray took this to mean that they were places Gavin had tossed around. Oh, Lizzie, he's just playing with you, can't you see that? Dump the guy, before he dumps you. Excerpted from Go Ask Fannie by Elisabeth Hyde All rights reserved by the original copyright owners. Excerpts are provided for display purposes only and may not be reproduced, reprinted or distributed without the written permission of the publisher.